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GOP Debate Summary 

I watched the entire GOP debate in New Hampshire, and this is what I walked away with:

Rubio is the best speaker, but you have to show up for the job you already have before you deserve the job you want. Responsibility fail. Beware the silver tongue who fails to show up when it counts. 

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Building A Mystery With Sarah

Sarah McLachlan is my jam. So soft and haunting. Reminds me of all the darkest moments in my life. When I couldn’t escape from the pain of my life, and didn’t want to.

There was a time when it felt better to hold rejection and betrayal close to my heart, so it could simmer like a steady fire. Everyone handles loss differently. Me? I chose to never lose again. I chose to never trust. Each person was useful only until they weren’t. Tools.

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I Hate the Word “Rural”

No, I don’t hate rednecks or find city folk superior. I hate the word “rural” because it just so happens to be the word I misspelled in the 4th grade regional spelling bee.

In my defense, I’d never heard such a word. I thought the adult staring at me was full of shit. He’s making this up, I thought. I can’t even begin to imagine how that strange sound would be spelled.

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Remembering A Speech By Obama

Now that his presidency is drawing to a close, I’m reminded of a speech Obama gave in 2008…

Obama delivered an empassioned speech tonight. I teared up a couple times. It wasn’t just what he said. It wasn’t just how he said it. It was the knowing in my heart that this was history in the making. This is the best man for the job. This is the right man at the right time, and that can only mean trouble.

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How Do You Heal A Secretly Dysfunctional Family?

The most deadly kinds of disease and dysfunction are the ones that go unnoticed or undiagnosed. What might have been relatively easy to fix becomes infinitely more difficult over time, assuming it is salvageable at all.

Enter my family. Luckily, this blog is anonymous, so you don’t know my family and they have no reason to feel exposed should they come across this post.

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Looks Like I’m Second Guessing All The Things

Maybe it’s a mood swing. Maybe it’s the comedown from caffeine. Maybe it’s the fact that my wife and I aren’t getting along. Whatever the case, I am second guessing everything. From career to blogs to the way I approach money.

I’m not happy. That’s no secret. I have been pushing myself mentally for months now to assume the mentality of an overachiever. I’ve been positioning myself to accomplish certain financial goals. And somewhere along the line, I became dependent upon my strategies for success to make me feel better as a person.

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The Transition From Poetic to Professional

As our anniversary looms, memories flood back to me of a time when my wife described how her feelings for me had evolved since college. Hearing her version of how I have changed since we met in 2000 reminded me of how frantically I clung to some version of a poetic lifestyle. I was entirely opposed to the stiff professional mindset of corporate America. I had no intention on focusing on money and acquiring lots of “things”.

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Stayed Up Too Late

Being a natural night owl still gets me sometimes. This is one. I have to wake up early with the baby, and I won’t have gotten enough sleep. Good thing I have these breathe right strips for my nose. They really help me sleep better and deeper.

I almost bought a handful of domains just now. Good thing I waited until after sleep. I’m a habitual domain purchaser. Good night, all. Sleep well, and dream of large women.

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Anonymous Yet Honest

A recent Twitter friend insinuated that I might be a spammer since I don’t post my actual name. While I can understand the sentiment, I also know how obviously outdated it is. The age of full disclosure is over. Those with any real degree of discernment will begin to compartmentalize their lives online in order to prevent storehouses of data such as Google, Yahoo, MySpace, Facebook, and others from having too much information.

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I Need To Learn How To Argue

It’s after 11pm. My wife and I just finished talking. An argument began at 5pm this afternoon. Seriously.

I’m wiped. I have nothing left to say. We have agreed that we need to practice a better method of argument. She and her mom are able to talk through things much more effectively than she and I do. Before you go thinking that it’s because I’m a man, just stop. That’s not it. It’s because we haven’t established the same level of trust.